Sometimes it takes the beginning of the year for people to do some serious soul searching and re-evaluate their lives. It is no different for me. I have been pondering 2009 over the last few weeks, and I can gladly say that I've been doing it with a smile.
How could I not when the biggest event for me was bringing my perfect little Annie Kate into this world? My tears are starting. It's because she is so precious AND life altering. Babies are no easy thing and I have been so grateful for friends to share the journey with, a sister to call about coughs and sleep habits, and my lovely mother, whom I adore, that I have had to do nothing but blubber to and she is dropping everything she is supposed to do so that she can come rescue her own sweet girl. (I know I'm taking liberties here saying that she thinks I'm sweet so I hope I'm being accurate). Even though Annie is hard, she is so so so good.
And there are the little moments- which happen to be my favorite kind. They are filled with kisses, funny scouts, meeting amazing new best friends, embracing my love for cooking, spontaneity, hugs from my Daddy, laughs with Sam, watching art, creating art, seeing Dallas really smile, taking risks, missing out, potty charts and bedtime stories, hide-and-seek, chocolate chip cookies, late nights and playgroups, and everything else that helps break up the monotony and sometimes the loneliness that comes with being a stay at home Mom.
And just like every year, there are the tough things. Some of these things aren't solved in a year's time, or even several year's time at that. I'm hoping when I look back at them that I will be proud also. There has been major losses in our family, one that will heal and one that just seems to fester. I have learned even more how another person's choices can affect so many others- for the good or the bad. But with all these hard things we have learned that it's best to let go.
Overall 2009 has been a year of growth, and that is what life is all about. So, whether the events of 2010 bring sadness, trial, or joy, I will welcome them as I try to make the best with what I have.
Wilson Halloween Extravaganza! - Potions, and Bingo, and mummies- oh my! We had witches, and zombies, and a pirate- no lie!
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